I’m very excited about my web page, and David has been an absolute sweetie pie helping me out with the visuals! I’ve never understood Photoshop, but he’s introduced me to so many different things and has been so patient 🙂 He is supportive and pushes me to do things when sometimes I don’t feel like it.
I want to share with you some personal things, now. My hopes by sharing these things, is that people will relate to what I’m saying, and that we all can help each other to talk about it and heal!
The diabetes has really progressed this year, and as morbid as it seems, the disease will eventually take my life. This is something I’m neither happy nor sad about, it is something that just is. I can do things to make myself feel better and surround my self with positive and healing people. I can choose to be open and accepting of the things I can’t change, or I can dwell on the pain, and being a “victim”.
In any chronic disease, you are going to have the ups and downs, and when the downs happen, we just need to accept that we aren’t feeling well at the time, and raise our vibration so that healing can come in. We do this by resetting our minds every day, because every day we have a fresh start and new choices and circumstances. Put on your favourite movie, your favourite CD, go for walks, look at pictures of beautiful things, do what you are able to do and don’t dwell on the things that you used to be able to do! Find new activities to keep your mind, body, and spirit fulfilled. Read that book, paint that drawer, pet your fur babies; do whatever makes you happy.
I often wonder why this has happened to me. Not in a victim kind of way, but by a spiritual and life’s purpose kind of way. For me, it is teaching me to love myself, to accept myself and to take care of myself.
Diabetes affects me from head to toe – quite literally. The anxiety and depression have been crippling, not to mention the pain from head to toe, from the neuropathy and vessel damage. The weight gain has been devastating and it’s hard to look at myself in the mirror these days. It transcends to me not wanting to be social, because I can’t hide my sadness any more. like I used to. The silver lining is that now I am more authentic, more human, and more real. I guess that’s not a bad place to be, eh?
After a few tangents, I am going to wrap up now. 🙂
Being in the current situation with my health, I will be limiting my work to what I am able do. I want to spend more time with the healing aspect of my work and expand some of my skills, so it’s easier on my body. I commend everybody that is in the field of Massage Therapy as it’s a very physical job, and takes the toll on our bodies.